Before you go on, close your eyes and Remember. The Vibration. Of thriving. What does it feel, taste, zoom like? For me, it's very green, very childhood biking ten miles on candy missions, very awake and starry starry night.
Lots of you know I had a "dis-ease" of the auto immune system and my body would shut down in different ways that crippled my ability to eat or think or move. There was the initial shock of trying to make peace with this, and then a very sad part passed where I accepted it, not in a joyful, this is going on now but will pass kind of way, but in a "oh well, this is me, this is me now and I have to make do. I'm a sicky. I can't do what other people can do. I'm broke somewhere."